On Friday, May 10th, I spoke with Mom’s hospice nurse on the phone. She very gently told me that all signs are pointing in a direction we’ve most feared. From her symptoms, it looked like kidney failure. To hear that my Mom had taken such a rapid turn was difficult. And to hear the sadness and concern from my family was so disheartening and frightening. The nurse told us she didn’t expect our Mom to live longer than 14 days.
I arrived back to Salt Lake City on May 14th. My Mom’s condition had deteriorated significantly. Trying to grasp, to breath, and at the same time accept what is, has been excruciating. I know so many of you reading this can sympathize and I thank you for your courage, example, and support.
Here is where we are…
As far as we know, Mom is showing symptoms of both kidney failure and liver failure. In order to ease the associated pains, she has been on strong doses of morphine. Although this helps with the pain, it also makes her extremely tired and interferes with mental clarity. We realize that mental clarity and fatigue are also symptoms of her organ failures, but it compounds the problem. So trying to maintain mental clarity – which she has requested – and manage her pain has been tricky. Her vitals have been stable, but these are often signs of our body “surging” in the end.
Our family is surrounding her with love, care, nurturing, and devotion. My Mom has had many visits with family, extended family, and dear friends. It is beautiful to witness the love that is pouring over my Mom every day. Every day is a blessing.
We all love her so very much. What a spectacular woman she is and what an amazing life she has lived. We pray that as she begins to slip away from us, that her transition will be peaceful and that she will be comforted.
My dear friend Adele sent me a quote yesterday about success. It sums up our Mom, our Omi, our Annemie, our Sweetart, our Annemusch, our Tante Anne… just perfectly. Thank you Adele.
“To laugh often and love much; to win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to give of one’s self; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived – this is to have succeeded.”
I love you all so much and I will keep you updated. If there is anything you need or if you have any questions at all please call or email me. firstname.lastname@example.org, 707-479-9979
Thank you as always, for all you have done for our beautiful Mom.